I’m not really sure about the whole ‘watching good things’ and ‘reading happy go lucky books’ way of life. That is to say that sticking to what is ‘safe’ or ‘pleasant’ is the proper way to learn and or grow as a person.
Some of my favorite books and movies are horrible and by horrible I mean ’Lovely Bones’, read it? It’s a book about a young girl who was raped and murdered, is in heaven watching her family and friends live life, put the pieces back together, try to solve the mystery and even discover who the murderer is. What transpired and the aftermath of such a horrid event was almost too much to bear as I read it, she even watches the man guilty as he grows old too. The development of the characters was the sweetest and most cuddly part(s) of the book but, yes a very sad book, I cried frequently. Same with ‘My Sisters Keeper’ and…the Memory Keepers Daughter .I watch the movie Constantine on a regular, The Conjuring, The Exorcism of Emily Rose..God, I am really not sure why I love the darkness so much. You wouldn’t think so as I pass through my days; always the joker, always pleasant and a happy go lucky girl. Then again…I’ve always seen things most do not, sense things others don’t, it’s maddening and I sometimes don’t sleep because…this is the first time I’ve written this or allowed myself to think it…it’s a burden. These movies and those books somehow provide a sense of solace, like I’m not the only one.
All that being said; do I think that my love of horror films and theses sad books define me? No. (And yes I just typed that fluidly)I think it’s interesting, gives me an edge 😉 I had friends in high school and even now that most would consider ‘dark people’ but I can relate to them. Perhaps those of us who are touched by the darkness, understand it, my darkness does not compare to others but it is my own. Oddly enough I still bask in the sunshine whenever I can, the glass will always be half full, I believe in God, Jesus and above all…
“Ernest Hemingway once wrote: The world is a nice place and worth fighting for. I believe in the second part” –Morgan Freeman: Shawshank Redemption
