It's been awhile. I am not sure whether it's the sure nerve and or raw feeling that comes from writing down ones inner most thoughts and or feelings but I struggle these days. All I think about when I write now is, hope, sometimes relief. Hope that someone will read this silly rant or two… Continue reading It’s a drinking shame
Category: moving on
Birthday Blues
In the light of day the room seemed completely different but the stench of that fight lingered. It’s been almost six months with Kyle. So like and so unlike any other. By far the most transparent relationship and the most passionate I have ever experienced. Here in Panama the winds wail and cry for the… Continue reading Birthday Blues
There is no spoon…
The idea of happiness, being happy, content, a deep sigh of 'life is good' is something that escapes me, I have moments of glee or thankfulness but overall I'm not happy. Consistently wanting more, thinking of him...remembering those few and far between happy times. That may be why I have an unhealthy connection to him,… Continue reading There is no spoon…
Push Me Pull You
12/24/2014 Boy meets girl who has given up on white horses, she is happy with friends and work. Boy sees that she still may need to be saved. Boy seems too good to be true so girl dips her feet in but even after a year and many ‘I love you’s’ she is still not… Continue reading Push Me Pull You