The idea of happiness, being happy, content, a deep sigh of 'life is good' is something that escapes me, I have moments of glee or thankfulness but overall I'm not happy. Consistently wanting more, thinking of him...remembering those few and far between happy times. That may be why I have an unhealthy connection to him,… Continue reading There is no spoon…
Tag: Romance
Frequentato
Everywhere I walk all I see are ghosts, specters, mists that look like your face, your eyes. A whiff of your smell or a flash of us laughing, sitting in that spot where we once called it love; I see places we went, things we did, things he said, things she said and it’s all… Continue reading Frequentato
#26
Once… I met a boy off Myspace. Kyle, he was very Seattle, snow sport and outdoors fanatic, sarcastic, loved flannels…hilarious, smart and after coming out of a very bad relationship he looked like gold. For a year…circa 2009 he was a Mr. Big for me. Completely emotionally unavailable, sexy, smart…all the things that draw you… Continue reading #26
“I may be blind, but there are some things I still see” -Duncan (Robin Hood)
All I ever wanted was to love and be loved in return. No games, no nonsense. Love isn’t suppose to be complicated…love is patient, love is kind, love is not boastful, right?! Love is also complicated and also simply uncomplicated. You either do or do lot love but there is sometimes grey area, love will… Continue reading “I may be blind, but there are some things I still see” -Duncan (Robin Hood)
‘All the wrongs seem right’
10/26/14 All these movies and books come out about affairs, I remember seeing the movie 'Valentines Day', I felt like I was watching a bit of my own story, I was the only one that I saw in the theater who was not only alone but who cried throughout the movie. I would like to… Continue reading ‘All the wrongs seem right’
Only the devil knows
9/28/14 After a slough of boys since Scott...one thing after another. It's pretty much gone one of two ways: they are trouble and or emotionally unavailable and I desire to be with them or they are secure in most ways and want to be with me and I feel nothing. I am "the full package",… Continue reading Only the devil knows
True love or true infidelity..
There is something surreal that comes when you've found the one, like all the mistakes, all the hurt and all the bitterness in the world is gone, and all that's left is the perfection of imperfection –Me 2/5/11 Is ignorance bliss? I don’t know what to write other than that because it seems as though… Continue reading True love or true infidelity..