True or False.. All's Fair in Love & War?
That darn blue dress. She hangs low these days and even though we've not worn her for many moons she still remembers so many things; what it was like to twirl, kiss and be kissed, take a chance, to feel loved and adored, to feel betrayed and broken, I think the last time I wore… Continue reading The Blue Dress
I used to bathe in being blissfully unaware. I met you and it was like 8 years of squinting at the light but also sitting in the dark, so untrue of so many truths I used to cling to. Becks in bed looks so different now, she seemingly does not exist, still celibate and I… Continue reading Becks In Bed
I’ve held something very close for as long as I can remember. Today I let it slip, a secret I did not know that I had, an omission that after I let the words slip past my lips, they seemed trapped inside my little apartment, circling me, bouncing off the walls, and forcing me to… Continue reading burn like never before…
It’s been over 5 years. 2 affairs, 1 miscarriage, 3 apartments, 1 loss of a mother, and countless fights, sexcapades, and 3 countries visited… Still, we try.. I don’t think am in love anymore, the affairs traumatized me and seemed to have flipped a switch that, try as I may, as we may, to reestablish… Continue reading Forever Goodbyes
I got my eyes on you, you're everything that I seeI want your hot love and emotion, endlesslyI got my eyes on you, you're everything that I seeI can't get over you, you left your mark on me Cause you're good girl and you know it, good girl and you know itYou act so different… Continue reading Adaptation 🎶
“So Dear to My Heart” he says..to my defensive soul all I hear is that I am an innocent and not so innocent consolation prize.. His words either slice through me like a hot sharp knife or they cause me to swoon and goose bump. Such an effect. One blow of his wind causes such… Continue reading The Butterfly Effect
It's been awhile. I am not sure whether it's the sure nerve and or raw feeling that comes from writing down ones inner most thoughts and or feelings but I struggle these days. All I think about when I write now is, hope, sometimes relief. Hope that someone will read this silly rant or two… Continue reading It’s a drinking shame
Once… I met a boy off Myspace. Kyle, he was very Seattle, snow sport and outdoors fanatic, sarcastic, loved flannels…hilarious, smart and after coming out of a very bad relationship he looked like gold. For a year…circa 2009 he was a Mr. Big for me. Completely emotionally unavailable, sexy, smart…all the things that draw you… Continue reading #26
12/24/2014 Boy meets girl who has given up on white horses, she is happy with friends and work. Boy sees that she still may need to be saved. Boy seems too good to be true so girl dips her feet in but even after a year and many ‘I love you’s’ she is still not… Continue reading Push Me Pull You
9/28/14 After a slough of boys since Scott...one thing after another. It's pretty much gone one of two ways: they are trouble and or emotionally unavailable and I desire to be with them or they are secure in most ways and want to be with me and I feel nothing. I am "the full package",… Continue reading Only the devil knows