I found this journal of my mom’s, she kept her own quote book of sorts, I had no idea and sadly and or ironically I have had one that I have filled since I was in my teens. Friends wrote in it, acquaintances, strangers and of course family. I use my quote book so often when I write, I had no idea she had one of her own, perhaps I need a new tag so you know, who ever reads this, that this came from her writings.
She kept emails, hand written paper napkins and cards where I would jot down a quote or two. Her hand writing declined over the years so in order to interpret some of her words I have to use a magnifying glass to decipher, it’s a labor of love. Additionally, she seemed to cling to the words at times, long sentences stretched beautifully and I don’t care about run on sentences when I read her writing, perhaps that’s where I get it from 😉 I can almost see her sitting alone beside the camper, watching an Arizona sunset dictating the colors, the tumble weeds and missing the Seattle rain as I know she did while they traveled. Looking beyond what I thought my mother was like as a women, as a human, not just my mother, has been by far one of the most thought provoking daily day dreams, even five years after her death I am still discovering things about her, our family and myself….as I look beyond my own mental constrictions.
“I’m a slow motion accident. Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints. I don’t want to feel anything but I do. And it all comes down to you” – B, circa11/05
“All the walls you scream about breaking down
I’ve watched you build brick by brick” – Bane, “Can We Start Again”
Lastly but not least..
“People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies. Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you. Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight. Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God. It was never between you and them anyway.” -Mother Teresa
-B & Jeanne Innes
