After I graduated from high school my parents sent me on a trip to Australia. I am sure that sounds wonderful and the trip and memories I made during my time there was, honestly it was more than that, it was magical. Still, it was a trip that should have been epic in other ways;… Continue reading If Wishes Were Fishes
Category: loss
“You Ain’t Got No Future Jack”
Despite all the remakes and don't get me wrong I respect them, Heath Ledger & Joaquin Phoenix...I am still haunted by both films, renditions of The Joker, mostly the most recent, did any of that movie even happen!? "You ain't got no future Jack" - Eckhardt. I believe he is an inspector or detective, but… Continue reading “You Ain’t Got No Future Jack”
The Most Cake
Drifting back and forth between being and wanting to be an adult and letting certain aspects of my personality settle back into infancy it seems. "I want to be the girl with the most cake" I do, I really do want to be the girl with the most cake. I imagine her to be quiet… Continue reading The Most Cake
Physical Trauma vs. Emotional Trauma
I found this fantastic site where you can obtain free pictures for social media or even Blog posts and I have even found pictures for work proposals and or meetings. I have been working on my manuscript, I used the site to look for media. A manuscript, if you can call it that, I really… Continue reading Physical Trauma vs. Emotional Trauma
“Sisters, sisters. There were never such devoted sisters”
I have small memories of my sister growing up. My Dad's voice telling me 'your sister is just, different. She thinks with only her heart'. He also said things like 'when you talk with her try and remember that you're talking with a grown-up but she thinks like you do, if not more naive'. Before… Continue reading “Sisters, sisters. There were never such devoted sisters”
Heart of Hearts – COVID Style
I found this piece of writing as I work through and re-write my Mothers musings. At first glance I see a list of what looks like doctors notes: Coronary heart disease, Hyperglycemia 70, Atrial Fibrillation, Heart Block AV, CHF Congestive Heart Failure, Asthma, age related nuclear lateral bilicetend, focal cloroidites (clitorides?) (left eye), hypothyroidism....I am… Continue reading Heart of Hearts – COVID Style
M.A.D.
It’s so hard to be sweet, to be quiet, to be vulnerable and demur. So much of me wants to fight; I don’t want to stay ‘stand up’ because I am not abused, generally unheard, I really do not go without (unless you consider the days I am on my 'diet' and I do not… Continue reading M.A.D.
Loving Forward & Moving Forward
I started to write earlier this week about trauma. I began to recant about a past situation, occurrence, nightmare come true but I just have not been able to keep writing. At times it is hard to write down what I have written; sometimes I cry when I am typing and of course many times… Continue reading Loving Forward & Moving Forward
Bound
The future looks bright for those who dream. Courageous flights, where these souls do not look back, they do not look down, they look forward. Not at a future that they want but a future they believe they have set in motion. I myself long for such a flight but I linger.Linger in fear, in… Continue reading Bound
Superwoman
Laying in my old bunk bed in the dark, the slightest of light coming from my cracked bedroom door. I had finally fallen off the bars, I guess you could call them monkey bars but they were always more serious to me; after so much practice I had fallen hard. I don’t remember anything after… Continue reading Superwoman