11/27 - Circa 2005 Weathering diversity, as I always have. Breaking down...no letting go and deciding to let him be mad and just do it for her. Another holiday alone, though I will never forget last years New Years, going to bed before midnight and feeling so low suicidal thoughts creeped. When does my epic… Continue reading All the promises we made..
Category: dating
Adaptation 🎶
I got my eyes on you, you're everything that I seeI want your hot love and emotion, endlesslyI got my eyes on you, you're everything that I seeI can't get over you, you left your mark on me Cause you're good girl and you know it, good girl and you know itYou act so different… Continue reading Adaptation 🎶
“It was all a dream” -Notorious BIG
I'm starting to wonder how many things I've been doing that are to purposefully set me back, all because of fear. Tonight while watching an old show, a wedding scene, a complicated relationship and seeing all the beautiful dynamics of a wedding, I sobbed like a baby! If you know me at all, ok well… Continue reading “It was all a dream” -Notorious BIG
Back in Time..
11.28.2000 While you decide what feelings fit I am lonely. I cry out to you, truly trying to speak in tongues. But all you get is my lips. My destination has altered, I now know your not where I should be going. I keep striving for strength, trying to hold back, but with you I… Continue reading Back in Time..
dare to dream
When I'm drifting off to sleep something in my broken heart rewinds. -B
Unprocessed Emotions
February 2021 Seeing his pain, watching him grow and learn and navigate through it all, the word inspiring just does not cover it. His trauma paints the walls a beautiful blue and my green eyes look on in awe. He is a true artist, I adore him but I cannot help looking back at the… Continue reading Unprocessed Emotions
An Unnecessary Sip
May 8, 2001 Last night I danced, with bright lights that beautified my body and soul. Boys ate at my looks like candy as I glided in the memory of him. So many emotions mixed within the liquor I consumed a night ago. Each sip I took was an unnecessary sip I took to ease… Continue reading An Unnecessary Sip
i loved you differently
I am a rather proud person, a woman of determination, a lady of her own. I have an independence that pushes and pulls people away and in at times, or so it seems. When I sit and count my demons I envision sitting on the edge of the pool that either I created or has… Continue reading i loved you differently
Physical Trauma vs. Emotional Trauma
I found this fantastic site where you can obtain free pictures for social media or even Blog posts and I have even found pictures for work proposals and or meetings. I have been working on my manuscript, I used the site to look for media. A manuscript, if you can call it that, I really… Continue reading Physical Trauma vs. Emotional Trauma
Heart of Hearts – COVID Style
I found this piece of writing as I work through and re-write my Mothers musings. At first glance I see a list of what looks like doctors notes: Coronary heart disease, Hyperglycemia 70, Atrial Fibrillation, Heart Block AV, CHF Congestive Heart Failure, Asthma, age related nuclear lateral bilicetend, focal cloroidites (clitorides?) (left eye), hypothyroidism....I am… Continue reading Heart of Hearts – COVID Style