“So Dear to My Heart” he says..to my defensive soul all I hear is that I am an innocent and not so innocent consolation prize.. His words either slice through me like a hot sharp knife or they cause me to swoon and goose bump. Such an effect. One blow of his wind causes such… Continue reading The Butterfly Effect
Category: family
Hear Her Roar
#TBT Three years ago to be exact.. The savage friend is one not all of us come across in a lifetime. That friend who will defend you no matter what and be by your side like the most loyal of humans. Beware the lioness though, she kills for much deeper reasons than survival. This friend… Continue reading Hear Her Roar
Fear
“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear” -Mark Twain I can think of nothing sadder that being governed by fear. By that I mean, each decision you make and or step you do or do not take is out of fear. Being fearful in a relationship is something I have… Continue reading Fear
City Loathing
My life is so chaotic, with all the dog sitting, relationship turmoil, death...and taxes (movie reference, get it?) it’s a wonder the dogs even like me. There is the occasional dog who sleeps away from me, lays away from me, watches me and I wonder if they sense my unrest, my complete abandon for certain… Continue reading City Loathing
Passing On
My Mother died in August. If you follow my blog and or read the one about internal bleeding that was about her, we all knew her sad but beautiful heart would someday fail but I don't think anything could have prepared me. I don't know many girls who have a best friend for their Mother;… Continue reading Passing On
Internal Bleeding
Internal bleeding (also called internal hemorrhage) is a loss of blood that occurs from the vascular system into a body cavity or space. It is a serious medical emergency and the extent of severity depends on bleeding rate and location of the bleeding (e.g. heart, brain, stomach, lungs) You know those people who have been… Continue reading Internal Bleeding
Monsters Ball
April 3 2016 They say the 2nd time is the charm, right!? Another night, another room, another occasion to hurt each other. Unlike last time I fought back, grabbing, pulling, pushing…’push me pull you’… Last time I was scared, balling at the monster he became. How I was able to recover mentally and still love… Continue reading Monsters Ball
Brotherly Love?
My brother is older than me; much older…yeah he is 10 years older. My Mom always says “something happened at 35 and your Dad got a lot cuter (wink wink (her)…GROSS! (me))”. It’s always amusing when he’s tried to give me marital and or relationship advice. In his defense he says very little but when… Continue reading Brotherly Love?
Pindrop or Anvil. It’s like Russian Roulette.
Sometimes my heart is so full, I feel everything. Hearing others stories of tragedy, redemption, all the sadness and woe and yet ‘here we stand’ and yet some of us do not…even those of who lived through such tragedies and or woes. I myself am a skeleton of what I once was. What an actress… Continue reading Pindrop or Anvil. It’s like Russian Roulette.