I found this fantastic site where you can obtain free pictures for social media or even Blog posts and I have even found pictures for work proposals and or meetings. I have been working on my manuscript, I used the site to look for media. A manuscript, if you can call it that, I really… Continue reading Physical Trauma vs. Emotional Trauma
Category: romance
Loving Forward & Moving Forward
I started to write earlier this week about trauma. I began to recant about a past situation, occurrence, nightmare come true but I just have not been able to keep writing. At times it is hard to write down what I have written; sometimes I cry when I am typing and of course many times… Continue reading Loving Forward & Moving Forward
Baby loves to run
I have always been a runner. The above statement is very misleading, and I wrote it with purpose. Partially to put it down on ‘paper’ that I am a runner and in doing so owning that shit. I am not saying that I love this about myself, that people should understand and or that it… Continue reading Baby loves to run
The Butterfly Effect
“So Dear to My Heart” he says..to my defensive soul all I hear is that I am an innocent and not so innocent consolation prize.. His words either slice through me like a hot sharp knife or they cause me to swoon and goose bump. Such an effect. One blow of his wind causes such… Continue reading The Butterfly Effect
Should have been a lawyer cuz I’m such a good liar..
Is it too early for a throw back? April 22nd, 2005 So many mornings I feel like today is no different than yesterday, each step, each word, they are all just routines in miniature. Each day I feel progressively more obese than the day before. When did I become so obsessed with fitting into this… Continue reading Should have been a lawyer cuz I’m such a good liar..
Hear Her Roar
#TBT Three years ago to be exact.. The savage friend is one not all of us come across in a lifetime. That friend who will defend you no matter what and be by your side like the most loyal of humans. Beware the lioness though, she kills for much deeper reasons than survival. This friend… Continue reading Hear Her Roar
It’s a drinking shame
It's been awhile. I am not sure whether it's the sure nerve and or raw feeling that comes from writing down ones inner most thoughts and or feelings but I struggle these days. All I think about when I write now is, hope, sometimes relief. Hope that someone will read this silly rant or two… Continue reading It’s a drinking shame
Monsters Ball
April 3 2016 They say the 2nd time is the charm, right!? Another night, another room, another occasion to hurt each other. Unlike last time I fought back, grabbing, pulling, pushing…’push me pull you’… Last time I was scared, balling at the monster he became. How I was able to recover mentally and still love… Continue reading Monsters Ball
Birthday Blues
In the light of day the room seemed completely different but the stench of that fight lingered. It’s been almost six months with Kyle. So like and so unlike any other. By far the most transparent relationship and the most passionate I have ever experienced. Here in Panama the winds wail and cry for the… Continue reading Birthday Blues
There is no spoon…
The idea of happiness, being happy, content, a deep sigh of 'life is good' is something that escapes me, I have moments of glee or thankfulness but overall I'm not happy. Consistently wanting more, thinking of him...remembering those few and far between happy times. That may be why I have an unhealthy connection to him,… Continue reading There is no spoon…