It’s so hard to be sweet, to be quiet, to be vulnerable and demur. So much of me wants to fight; I don’t want to stay ‘stand up’ because I am not abused, generally unheard, I really do not go without (unless you consider the days I am on my 'diet' and I do not… Continue reading M.A.D.
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Loving Forward & Moving Forward
I started to write earlier this week about trauma. I began to recant about a past situation, occurrence, nightmare come true but I just have not been able to keep writing. At times it is hard to write down what I have written; sometimes I cry when I am typing and of course many times… Continue reading Loving Forward & Moving Forward
Bound
The future looks bright for those who dream. Courageous flights, where these souls do not look back, they do not look down, they look forward. Not at a future that they want but a future they believe they have set in motion. I myself long for such a flight but I linger.Linger in fear, in… Continue reading Bound
in momenti di grande tensione
“In times of stress, the best thing we can do for each other is to listen with our ears and our hearts and to be assured that our questions are just as important as our answers.”― Fred Rogers, The World According to Mister Rogers: Important Things to Remember I do not speak Italian, let me just be… Continue reading in momenti di grande tensione
Distrust
Is it possible to begin a relationship without having to bring up previous ones? Previous fails, successes, infidelities, lies, abuse, sadness....I could go on but what is the use, I am hoping you get the point. If some relationships define another what does it mean if we do not wish to have our past defined?… Continue reading Distrust
The Art of Running Backwards
In relationships there is often give and take. Compromise should be a piece of the foundation of any relationship if you want it to thrive and survive. Each partner should allow each person to meet his or her needs together with the other. Don't compromise yourself, you are all that you have. A real man… Continue reading The Art of Running Backwards
Baby loves to run
I have always been a runner. The above statement is very misleading, and I wrote it with purpose. Partially to put it down on ‘paper’ that I am a runner and in doing so owning that shit. I am not saying that I love this about myself, that people should understand and or that it… Continue reading Baby loves to run
Feeling musical…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcoE89oEHoI 'Sometimes the most perfect love stories end. That does not, however, make them anything less than wonderful.' -B (and Carrie Bradshaw I think) There's something about Ed Vedder. I definitely had an alt phase, being a Seattle girl after all (which I am sure you know if you follow this blog). I loved so… Continue reading Feeling musical…
The Butterfly Effect
“So Dear to My Heart” he says..to my defensive soul all I hear is that I am an innocent and not so innocent consolation prize.. His words either slice through me like a hot sharp knife or they cause me to swoon and goose bump. Such an effect. One blow of his wind causes such… Continue reading The Butterfly Effect
Should have been a lawyer cuz I’m such a good liar..
Is it too early for a throw back? April 22nd, 2005 So many mornings I feel like today is no different than yesterday, each step, each word, they are all just routines in miniature. Each day I feel progressively more obese than the day before. When did I become so obsessed with fitting into this… Continue reading Should have been a lawyer cuz I’m such a good liar..