Both are under scrutiny. The stench of lies and ego fog any love cloud from forming in such conditions. Starring at countless ceilings, so many blind spots both spiritually, sexually, and emotionally. There was no surrendering, not anymore. I feel crazy thinking of your words and you so freely throw punches as if you think… Continue reading The Heart Break Special
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Paint by Number
Away into the sunset I painted, number by number. Dreaming of a day that knocks all others off the books. Sitting in another's shoes I see my weakness more than before. Each day I sleep in the sound his embrace used to make and each day I kiss the memory goodbye but I can't seem… Continue reading Paint by Number
I Am a Rock
When I was a youngin my mother would say this, or at least that is the way I remember it....that and the main verse playing in my head: "I am a rock, I am an island. And a rock feels no painAnd an island never cries" - Simon & Garfunkel As an adult trying like… Continue reading I Am a Rock
Death & Taxes
During this tax season, I find myself hopeful and excited when I perhaps should not be but my naive heart just sees that I get money back each year so never mind what I have lost. On loss, this Saturday my mother would have been 75 years old, I used to be such a wreck… Continue reading Death & Taxes
TBT “away from love”
May 3rd, 2001 Perhaps my hatred for her comes out of fear. Fear that she could take away my greatest asset, or maybe that fear I have never spoken of, the one where I often catch a glimpse of my own weakness in her smile. I wish right now that I could get up and… Continue reading TBT “away from love”
Loving You Had Consequences
I loved you differently. Don't want you back you're just the best I ever had. My spirit is bruised but my tenacity could never be shaken by your betrayals. They say you never lose by loving, I know I've lost something but the fact that I do not know what's missing tells me I am… Continue reading Loving You Had Consequences
The Art of Running Backwards
In relationships there is often give and take. Compromise should be a piece of the foundation of any relationship if you want it to thrive and survive. Each partner should allow each person to meet his or her needs together with the other. Don't compromise yourself, you are all that you have. A real man… Continue reading The Art of Running Backwards
#26
Once… I met a boy off Myspace. Kyle, he was very Seattle, snow sport and outdoors fanatic, sarcastic, loved flannels…hilarious, smart and after coming out of a very bad relationship he looked like gold. For a year…circa 2009 he was a Mr. Big for me. Completely emotionally unavailable, sexy, smart…all the things that draw you… Continue reading #26
‘All the wrongs seem right’
10/26/14 All these movies and books come out about affairs, I remember seeing the movie 'Valentines Day', I felt like I was watching a bit of my own story, I was the only one that I saw in the theater who was not only alone but who cried throughout the movie. I would like to… Continue reading ‘All the wrongs seem right’